I'm 26 now, wow!

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Crazy life. I'm tired yet exhilarated. I haven't done anything, haven't painted, haven't read, just worked. Now work is done, so here I am.

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I've been everywhere, done everything, felt like coming back to earth, I missed art.

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I can never resist a challenge to my manhood.

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I've been away from here for a few days, loosing weight and working, you know, all that jazz.

So here is my progress so far,

Day 4 - 127.5 pounds


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=areml Is a deviant I love, and you should love him too.
And a few works to whet your appetite





DIRTY - My personal fave


EMO PORNO STAR - Read the poem people


THE BELLY OF THE BEAST - Hot!!!


THE SOLE OF MY LOVER - Beautiful feet of a beautiful woman


THE LADIES MAN - A bit porno noir

I can never resist a challenge to my manhood.

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There is this thing I've been wanting to do as of late. I really really really need to do it, otherwise I feel as though I may throw myself off the nearest cliff. I need to lose 20 pounds, and I need to lose it NOW. I've frankly had enough dilly-dallying, and need to get to work. Life isn't for ever, and I've even heard that you practically miss the whole thing while making plans for some other future. I want to feel accomplished, and I want it now.

I've also heard that shame is the number one motivating factor for all people. That is why I write this here, knowing full well it has nothing to do with art. Altough maybe it does...it's all a cycle, everything is connected. I hope that having this infront of you, will keep my motivation from slipping, cuz I know what a slippery thing that motivation is.

My current weight is 130, my height is 5' 7".
I am giving myself 30 days, beginning tomorrow the 21st of March.
I will in no way starve myself. I am a raw foodist, one who eats everything raw.
130 may seem like a healthy weight, but not for me, not on my frame. It has not made me happy lately, and I'm ready for a change, for a lightening of being.

I'll keep track of my weight here in this journal, day by day.
Wish me luck.



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=areml Is a deviant I love, and you should love him too.
And a few works to whet your appetite





DIRTY - My personal fave


EMO PORNO STAR - Read the poem people


THE BELLY OF THE BEAST - Hot!!!


THE SOLE OF MY LOVER - Beautiful feet of a beautiful woman


THE LADIES MAN - A bit porno noir